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Someone once said: “Dying is not the end…It is just the beginning”

Every year I take a moment to mourn friends lost.

There have been so many.
Too many….

As I talk to you…

As I talk to you, I have to remind myself:

You were my best friend…

You were the love of my life…

You broke me…

As I talk to you, I have to remind myself:

You are the same as you were then…

You probably still are the love of my life…

You broke me….

As I talk to you, I have to remind myself:

You are still the person I miss…

You are still the best friend I miss…

You broke me….

As I talk to you, I have to remind myself:

You talk…

You still understand me…

You broke me…

As I talk to you I have to remind myself:

I loved you…

I will probably always love you…

You broke me…

As I talk to you, I have to remind myself:

You broke me…

As I talk to you, I have to remind myself:

I loved you and gave my everything…

I loved you and walked away to make you happy…

You broke me…

As I talk to you, I have remind myself:

You broke me…

I got back up…

I must stay strong…

I must keep reminding myself.

Life & Love in song.

S.O.S. (Anything But Love) – Apocalyptica;Apocalyptica featuring Cristina Scabbia

There are a few songs that resonate with me by Apocalyptica, but this one always gets me. The first time I heard it I was still with my ex, and as soon as I heard it and heard the words, it was as if a gigantic light bulb went off in my head.

It was as if this song had captured my relationship.

I Don’t Care – Apocalyptica featuring Adam Gontier

When I got back after a messy exit and near nervouse breakdown, this song helped a lot. It helped me to deal with the anger I felt. The murderous anger.



Broken Pieces – Apocalyptica feat. Lacey

All three these songs describe my ex life very well. I think back and I can’t believe I was so blind and so stupid. Especially on the rough days when it still feels like I cannot get my life together.

And then onto the next life:

Not Strong Enough–Apocalyptica feat. Brent Smith

I’m pretty sure I’m a weak moron. I know better but noooo, I just keep allowing it. I can’t face the reality that this one has fucked out as well and that I should probably just call it a day.

I just keep thinking about how he loves me but it’s probably just not meant to be. And then of course there’s the part of me that keeps living in hope. That after 3.5yrs it will get better. He will get better.

And then there’s the truth: I loved and got destroyed. Never thought I could again. Now I’m loved and I do love.The fear of never being happy drives to me stay with: “I’m not unhappy either” and it’s better than possibly being alone and unloved till I die.

1. Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on
the same night.

2. Don’t worry about what people think, they don’t do it very often.
3. Going to church doesn’t make you a Christian anymore than standing in a
garage makes you a car.

4. Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
5. If you must choose between two evils, pick the one you’ve never tried

6. My idea of housework is to sweep the room with a glance.
7. Not one shred of evidence supports the notion that life is serious.
8. It is easier to get forgiveness than permission.
9. For every action, there is an equal and opposite government program.
10. If you look like your passport picture, you probably need the trip.
11. Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of cheques.
12. A conscience is what hurts when all of your other parts feel so good.
13. Eat well, stay fit, die anyway.
14. Men are from earth. Women are from earth. Deal with it.
15. No man has ever been shot while doing the dishes.
16. A balanced diet is a biscuit in each hand.
17. Middle age is when broadness of the mind and narrowness of the waist
change places.

18. Opportunities always look bigger going than coming.
19. Junk is something you’ve kept for years and throw away three weeks
before you need it.

20. There is always one more imbecile than you counted on.
21. Experience is a wonderful thing. It enables you to recognise
a mistake
when you make it again.

22. By the time you can make ends meet, they move the ends.
23. Thou shalt not weigh more than thy fridge.
24. Someone who thinks logically provides a nice contrast to the real world.
25. It’s not the jeans that make your bum look fat.
26. If you had to identify, in 1 word, the reason why the human race has
not achieved, & never will achieve, its full potential, that word would be

27. There is a very fine line between "hobby" and "mental illness".
28. People who want to share their religious views with you almost never
want you to share yours with them.

29. You should not confuse your career with your life.
30. Nobody cares if you can’t dance well. Just get up and dance.
31. Never lick a steak knife.
32. The most destructive force in the universe is gossip.
33. You will never find anybody who can give you a clear and compelling
reason why we put the clocks back.

34. You should never say anything to a woman that even remotely suggests
that you think she’s pregnant unless you can see an actual baby emerging
from her at that moment.

35. There comes a time when you should stop expecting other people to make
a big deal about your birthday. That time is age eleven.

36. The one thing that unites all human beings, regardless of age, gender,
religion, economic status or ethnic background, is that, deep down inside,
we ALL believe that we are above average drivers.

37. A person, who is nice to you, but rude to the waiter, is not a nice

38. Your friends love you anyway.
39. Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur
built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic.


Naughty Joke

Ethel was a bit of a demon in her wheelchair, and loved to charge around the
nursing home, taking corners on one wheel and getting up to maximum speed on
the long corridors. Because the poor woman was one sandwich short of a
picnic the other residents tolerated her and some of them actually joined
in. One day Ethel was speeding up one corridor when a door opened and Kooky
Clarence stepped out with his arm outstretched. ‘STOP!’ he shouted in a firm
voice. ‘Have you got a license for that thing?’

Ethel fished around in her handbag and pulled out a Kit Kat wrapper and held
it up to him. ‘OK’ he said, and away Ethel sped down the hall.

As she took the corner near the TV lounge on one wheel, weird Harold popped
out in front of her and shouted ‘STOP! Have you got proof of insurance?’

Ethel dug into her handbag, pulled out a drink coaster and held it up to
him. Harold nodded and said ‘On your way, Ma’am.’

As Ethel neared the final corridor, Crazy Craig stepped out in front of her,
Butt- Naked, and holding his ‘You-Know-What’ in his hand. ‘Oh, good grief,’ yelled Ethel, ‘Not that Damn Breathalyzer Test again!’

Thank you

Thank you for leaving my pc speakers on, I’ll be sure to remember to thank you when they burn out.

Thank you for taking out the rubbish like you said you would 3 days ago, I’ll be sure to remember that when I’m picking up the rubbish off the floor.

Thank you for emptying your overflowing ashtray, I’ll remember to think of you fondly when I need to replace my R1300 computer keyboard due to ash damage.

Thank you for tidying up something, I’ll be sure to tell my parents that you did your best by doing nothing.

Thank you for putting up the bathroom cabinet, I’ll be sure to remind myself about that when I trip over it again.

Thank you for doing some washing, I’ll be sure to remember that when I’m picking up your dirty clothes off the bathroom floor.

Thank you for drinking out all the wine in the house. I’ll be sure to tell the suppliers that I can’t tell them how the samples were, because I never got to taste them.

Thank you for going shopping. I see our kitchen shelves are still nice and empty.

Thank you for lying to me by telling me you were job hunting when the computer history clearly shows you were playing games, I’ll be sure to remember that when I’m homeless because you couldn’t pay your half of the rent.

Thank you for reminding me how I work 6days a week for NOTHING. I’ll remember that while you’re sitting at the pub/home drinking/playing pc games.

Thank you for sitting in the pub and drinking beer while I slave away work thinking you’re making an effort, I’ll remember that when the debt collectors come knocking on my door.

THANK YOU for making me think back to the days when I was better off alone, I’ll be sure to remember you when I think that being alone and miserable is worse than being with you.

Can’t Win

I had a boyfriend who told me everyday that he loved me. But didn’t show it. It rolled off his lips like a song:

“I love you, I love you, I love you more than any person before”. And I believed it, felt it, loved him with my everything.

Then came the day….they day “seeing is believing and hearing is no evidence” prevailed.

I left with nothing. Not even my heart.


And then…I met another. One who tries to show love instead of saying it. Tries to show love with actions and not words……puts up with my crazy and my moods….


AND THEN…..the questions that could not be answered…..


Anger ManagementBitchBrickkillPpl personBullshitGive a fuckTalk Shit

The Differences…

Q: What is the difference between men and puppies?

A: Puppies grow up.

Q: Why do men always have a stupid look on their faces?

A: Because they are…

Q: What do men have in common with ceramic tiles?

A: Fix them properly once and you can walk all over them forever.;;)

Q: If you drop a man and a brick out of a plane, which one would hit the ground first?
A: Who cares?????…..

Q: What did God say after he created man?
A: I can do better than this! And then he created woman!!!.;)

Q: What’s the difference between an intelligent man & a UFO ?
A: I don’t know, I’ve never seen either.

Q: What are two reasons why men don’t mind their own
A: 1. no mind 2. no business

Q: What makes men chase women they have no intention of marrying?
A: The same urge that makes dogs chase vehicles they have no intention of driving.

Q: What do you do with a man who thinks he’s God’s gift?
A: Exchange him!!

Q: Why do men like smart women?
A: Opposites attract [Hell yea ;)]


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